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Wednesday, January 6, 2016

Nice to know you, Subic!

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Ending the 2015 with  an adventure
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Okay so let say all of the places you've been, you went with a relative, right? But with this one, It was an Adventure of a lifetime for me. It's the very first trip where we didn't have adults with us (or in this case, we're the only adult present!). It was just me, Don, and he's little love bug we picked up from SM, Pampanga.

Tuesday, January 13, 2015

Blogging equals Solitude

This is the only thing close to my dreams


It's hard to push yourself to wake up everyday and do something that keeps you farther and farther away from who you really want to be.

It's been more than a year. It feels so heavy. Im upset with myself. I've been planning for my future ever since I entered high school. I knew who and what I wanted to become. I knew how to get there. I knew where to be to get there. I knew what to do to get there. And then one day, they made me realize that the dream I was chasing was impossible to get to because I just didn't have the sources. It was what I missed in planning my dreams... money.

I've always wanted to be an architect. I wanted to see every inch of the world and somehow create something and be part of something I know I can be proud of to call it 'mine'. I wanted to be able to someday say that 'I was part of something big.' 'I did something great.' But being where I am now, I know I could never reach that dream ever again. And I wake up everyday with regrets at the back of my mind. Thinking that I shouldn't be waking up for this. I should be out there and not here. It was that hard to wake up and pretend you're happy at what you're doing.

Friday, January 9, 2015

Looking back at 2014, the year I lost myself

Just a few more nights, it's hello 2015 for me.

This 2014 has been such a year for me. Not only did my family have to face so much, but even my school came to such notice of my behavior lately. But it doesn't stop there.

It all started from having troubles at home when my dad lost his job because he was questioned about his other business, and then my dad's business also went to  the soils. Our only income was my mom's. We had a hard time budgeting everything, paying fees monthly like electric bills, water bills, cable. Of course we also include food, allowances and my grandmother who's not with us but also counts on my mom's support because my mom's the eldest among them 3 siblings. And other things needed payment, it was all out my mom's pocket.